The reality of the race coming to a close is not beyond my gaze. Ten months have passed quicker than I could have imagined and I can only anticipate these last few weeks will do the same.
In my latest blog post, I referenced my conviction to surrender my plan to the Lord, asking Him for His plan instead. But, of course, naturally, as one chapter comes to a close, you anticipate another will soon begin. I’ve started to wonder, even plot out here and there the possibilities, finding myself in the pattern of continued surrender. In my wondering, how will the storyline develop within my own life, I’ve sensed the Lord closing the book.
Even now as I’m writing this, He is further gifting me revelation. Sometimes, the next chapter in the book is for dust to collect and for thoughts to tick. I had a mentor recently pour out wisdom saying, “We are all educated past our level of obedience”. As that rebuke from the Lord, dug deep below my surface, I found myself repenting for the ways I have constantly sought out my next epiphany, rather than remaining in the one He had just blessed me with.
But, there’s a point in processing and waiting. As He ushers me to rest in a liminal space, I don’t plan on rejecting responsibilities that come my way, like a job, the relationships I hold, and most importantly tending to His and my friendship. However, He has kindly revealed the brilliance in slowing my breath, in stopping, and in appreciating all that happened to ensure whatever is next, whatever plan He does hold is entered in health.
So, to the creeping thoughts that I‘ll somehow fall behind, that my progress will be slowed, He has reminded me, the only thing I am supposed to be behind is Him. So long as I am in pace with Him, I am on course for the abundant life He has promised me, regardless of what the standards of the world might say.
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